This new drug is working so well that for the first time in about two years I am not stuck sleeping on only my right side! What a relief! It’s great news and I’m glad to have this freedom. Would you believe, though, that my left shoulder is sore from sleeping on it?
This has been going on since early June. I gave it a bit of time to see if it would resolve on its own, but it didn’t. I get free physiotherapy at the cancer centre, but it took a while to get in. I am happy to say that this week I finally saw the physiotherapist. She’s excellent! (Don’t know why I waited so long to ask for an appointment!)
She did some work on my shoulder, and immediately my range of motion increased! She gave me stretches and strengthening exercises, and instructed me on how to hold my body. I”ve been working on it the past couple of days, and things are improving, but oh it hurts!
These past months my body has gotten in the habit of moving in certain ways to protect itself from further harm. This is good, because I haven’t injured myself more. But it’s become a bad habit because I’m moving in ways that aren’t healthy for my body. Without even realizing, I’ve grown accustomed to a new way of holding myself and doing things, and that has resulted in significant tightening and weakening of certain muscles. This will take time to overcome!
I knew there was a problem, but I didn’t know what it was nor how to work at improving it. I’m thankful for the expertise of the physiotherapist to help me with this. Working at the exercises is awkward and even painful, but I know it’s a necessary part of the healing process.
Pain can be a gift, because it tells us something is wrong. Avoiding pain is common and desirable in many ways, but it’s so good to stretch out of the unhelpful, self-protecting patterns that we may have established, that we may not even be aware of!
Unhealthy self-protection isn’t just a physical thing. There are many ways we can hold ourself back from being who we are really meant to be. Our desire for comfort and resulting choices can cause us harm.
Taking risks and stretching out our comfort zones can be healthy, exhilarating even! … and it can hurt! but sometimes that pain is necessary for good growth.
Our beloved Bible study group is working through Galatians, it this week a number of references about true freedom jumped out at me. I yearn for us all to live a life of fullness and true freedom!
Don’t let fear or pain hold you back!