A Dog’s Life is Filled with Hope!

I’ve never been much of a dog person, but my daughter sure is. She loves dogs. She’s on her fourth “Dog Calendar” now – you know, the kind where there’s a new picture for each day of the year, and for my daughter, each doggie picture is cuter than the one before.

A little over a year ago, our family decided to adopt a rescue dog. We went in thinking we knew what we wanted (medium size, preferably black or mostly black). We chose Colo, even though he wasn’t exactly what we’d planned for (he’s white and the size of a small house horse). It’s hard to explain how it happened, but we love this dog, and we brought him home.

Somehow this dog keeps digging his way deeper and deeper into my heart. I’ve learned to scratch his ears in just the right places, and I’ve come to understand that this dog is filled with hope.

When I reach for my shoes, he’s hoping for a walk. When he hears a crinkly sound, he’s hoping for a treat.

Tonight I was making chocolate chip cookies, and the dog plonked himself down on the floor at my feet, looking at me with those gorgeous brown eyes, expectantly, waiting, looking up, hoping, anticipating, at the ready, just in case some small bit of batter might happen to fly out of the bowl.

Which (he should know by now) was not likely! And even if some small bit of chocolate chip batter did dare take the plunge toward the eager dog lying in wait below … how could he imagine that I would not, with my lightening-fast ninja-like reflexes, intercept it long before he had even the remotest chance? This dog lives in hope!

He knows that I am not some clumsy cook who would carelessly cast off delectable delights, especially not ones containing compounds dangerous to dogs. Yet he hopes!

Why shouldn’t he hope? Why shouldn’t we? After all, here I am alive and baking cookies five years after a terrible diagnosis. Why shouldn’t we live a life filled with hope?

Especially when the baker is holding out a spoon, filled with good cookie batter, just waiting for you! Hope!

Clinical Trial Update

On Friday May 8th, I learned that I get to eat breakfast for the foreseeable future! I’m part of a clinical trial which is examining the effects of food on absorption of a new drug which is under examination here, and not yet available by prescription.

Afternoon testing supplies

Some of the testing supplies

I started Monday the 11th, with a long (8:00am to 5:00pm) day at the hospital. Some excellent nurses poked a needle into me which remained there for the course of the day so that at regularly scheduled intervals throughout the day they could collect blood samples to analyse how this new drug was doing in my bloodstream.  Several times they also attached about ten electrodes to my skin to record how my heart was doing. There were a few other tests which also occurred in a blur of a busy day. These were all a routine part of the clinical trial.

One poke lasts the whole day!

One poke lasts the whole day!

Electrodes for the ECG

Electrode for the ECG

Vomit bucket unused!

Vomit bucket unused! 🙂

I didn’t feel like a guinea pig, though. I felt very well cared for by skilled (and happy) professionals who made a long and tiring day as enjoyable as it could possibly be. Well, they didn’t give me chocolate, but one nurse who was going on break near the end of the day even went so far as to ask if she could bring me something.

Over the day I learned a bit about them and their families and observed some of what their job was like. It’s a small unit with a lot going on. Patient care comes first, and they always seem willing to answer questions or stop and talk. At times during the day they were very busy: one patient forgot to come in for her morning appointment and had to be squeezed into the crowded afternoon schedule. Another patient had to be whisked away for some additional tests, with many repeated explanations given to the patient as well as three accompanying family members. Blood samples were spun out in the centrifuge, chairs and beds were rearranged in intricate patterns, and scheduling at times seemed like an advanced logic puzzle.

Monday morning this tray was filled with empty tubes. Late in the afternoon, only one set of blood tests left!

Monday morning this tray was filled with empty tubes. Late in the afternoon, the timer counts down to the last set of blood tests for the day!

My morning was basically non-stop tests, with little downtime in between. Two nurses were needed at times because some tests had to be performed simultaneously. The afternoon was a bit quieter, with time for short walks around the hospital between tests. I enjoyed visits with my husband and another friend, and did a little reading.

I went back for a shorter visit with fewer tests the next day, and again this week. I will be spending time (mostly short visits) with these nurses weekly over the coming months. I could think of worse things!

So far, this drug seems to be working! I am still coughing, but much less often – and it doesn’t feel like I may explode whenever I cough. I’m tired, but less so than I was in recent weeks. I’m sometimes short of breath, but no more than before and perhaps even less. I am thankful!

I’m also thankful that the side effects seem better than with the previous drug. It’s hard to say at this point, but I understand that usually side effects decrease after the first week or two and this is what I’m hoping for! So far, there has been a fair bit of nausea but no vomiting. My tummy is upset a lot of the time, but this may fade. No visual disturbances, so I may try driving at night again at some point.

So far, so good!

Last time I asked for prayer for my side which was extremely sore. I rejoice to report that the pain is completely gone and has been for some time. Very thankful!

We continue to be grateful beyond words for the countless ways so many people show us love and kindness. The other night as we sat down to a meal which an amazing woman from church had prepared and delivered to us, my 8yo daughter leaned onto my arm, looked up at me and said with the most beautifully expressive voice, “We are so blessed!”

Yes, we are!

We are so grateful for the thoughtful generosity of so many!

We are so grateful for the thoughtful generosity of so many!

Gerberas are the happiest flowers!

Gerberas are the happiest flowers!

Spring is bursting out in our garden!

Spring is bursting out in our garden!

Our garden changes too quickly in Spring!

Our garden changes too quickly in Spring!

Another glimpse of Spring in our garden!

Another glimpse of Spring in our garden!

Check out the texture on this tulip in a public garden!

Check out the texture on this tulip in a public garden!

Wood duck

Wood duck: the other day we noticed a new neighbour!

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Group hug! Goodbye to good friends!

Group hug! Goodbye to good friends who came for a visit!

Super Foods (anticancer, anti-inflammatory, immune-enhancing)

We cancer patients are blessed with a whole team to help care for us, including a lovely dietician who provided me with a list of “super foods”, and even a bunch of delicious seaweed recipes when I told her the only time I’ve ever cooked with seaweed was to occasionally make sushi! It’s been a fun adventure searching for and trying new things! We’re enjoying new shapes and flavours of mushrooms, and taking the “rainbow” of food colours concept to whole new levels!

I’ve read a bit from cancer dieticians, and the potential health benefits of a variety of foods seem amazing! I am grateful for this information, and the opportunity to eat healthier!

Basically, I eat LOADS of veggies and fruit every day (sometimes in juice / smoothy form), along with three to four times as much protein as I used to eat (since I’m on chemo).

Here (in case you’re interested) is a list of “super foods” I posted on the side of the fridge to help keep me on track  …

Vegetables:

Cabbage Family (Crucifers): cabbage, broccoli, cauliflower, kale, curly kale, brussels sprouts, collard greens, watercress, turnip

Allium family: garlic, onions, leeks, shallots, chives

Tomatoes (especially cooked) – seems beneficial against prostate cancer, not so applicable to me personally!

Mushrooms: shitake, enokitake, boletes, cremini, maitake, Portobello

Seaweed: kombu, wakame, nori

Fruits:

Berries: wild blueberries, cranberries, blackberries, raspberries, strawberries, pomegranate, grapes

Citrus fruits & juices

Probiotics: yogurt (especially with lactobacilli & bifidobacteria), kefir (eat with prebiotics such as: onion, garlic, asparagus, banana, wheat.)

Meat & Alternatives:

Fatty fish: salmon, sardines, herring, rainbow trout, Atlantic mackerel, arctic char

Soy, beans, lentils

Nuts / Seeds: Ground flax seed, wheat germ, ground walnuts, almonds, brazil nuts

Other:

Oils: Olive, Canola, Flaxseed

Spices & herbs: turmeric, black pepper, ginger, mint, thyme, parsley, coriander, celery …

Tea: Japanese green

Red wine (I’m not drinking while on chemo, plus red wine gives me migraines)

Dark chocolate (70% +)