I won’t lie. This past month has been a challenging season, due to pain, nausea, fatigue and breathing challenges. Living with cancer can be very challenging, but thankfully the pain, nausea and fatigue are improving. I’ve had to hunker down and rest a lot, but am thankful to still be able to spend a little time with people, get some exercise and continue to do some advocacy work. We don’t get to choose all of our life circumstances, but we often get choice in how we respond. We can control the things we can control. Choosing to give thanks even in the midst of challenges can be a real game changer.
The upper endoscopy which happened the end of September (mentioned in the previous post) went well. We learned that my esophagus (food pipe) had narrowed to the size of a pin prick. No wonder swallowing was so challenging! The next day the phone rang with an appointment for a stent to be inserted in my esophagus the day after. A stent is a flexible tube to help keep the esophagus open to make it easier to swallow food and drink. I was very thankful for the opportunity to take advantage of a cancellation and get this taken care of quickly. That procedure was harder on me than I anticipated, and I slept for some time in the hospital afterwards. I’m thankful for Jackie Manthorne, President and CEO of Canadian Cancer Survivors Network (pictured below) who waited patiently, helped get my prescription meds and got me home safe and sound. So many people have supported by driving to and/or from appointments. What a good gift! Because this time was such short notice I put a request out on facebook, and had multiple offers within a few minutes. Thanks also to Robyn Denis who drove me to the appointment. So many have offered and have driven, and you have no idea how much it means. Thank you!
I’m very grateful that swallowing is so much easier than it was in September. In addition to liquids and puréed foods, I can carefully chew and swallow soft foods. This helped make (Canadian) Thanksgiving Dinner much more enjoyable. Very thankful for my middle child and her boyfriend who cooked a delicious vegan dinner for us. There was tons of food, mostly on the kitchen counter since it would not all fit on the table. I still eat very small portion sizes, and could not finish all the yummy veggies on my plate that evening.
I’m also incredibly thankful for the gorgeous weather we’ve enjoyed this Fall. I went out walking as much as I could, often with my youngest who I’m so grateful for, and our big sweet dog. Here is some of the beauty we’ve been able to enjoy this past month.
Today I’m especially thankful for two dear friends who popped by this afternoon. We are blessed with so many good people who generously support us. Love and support can make a world of difference, especially during the challenging seasons, and I can’t tell you how much that means.
Could I challenge you to choose a friend or neighbour to reach out to with love and support in the next few weeks? This does not need to be someone affected by cancer, but could be someone going through a difficult season. Please never underestimate the difference you can make for someone!
November is Lung Cancer Awareness Month! What is your Cancer Centre doing to celebrate survivors and raise awareness?
Thank you so much for this update Jill. You continue to amaze me as you journey on well! It is so good for those of us further away to know you are being looked after, by God’s grace.
Love, and prayers. Christine(Oshawa)
Sent from my iPhone Christine DuMoulin
Jill, you lift up my heart with every single one of your words. Thank you…
Did you hear Steve Bell on Friday?
Because we hunkered down..https://www.stbenedictstable.ca/blog/because-we-hunkered-down
You are amazing, Jill. Your positive attitude and ability to accept and give help, support, love, etc as needed are inspiring. Keep it up and get on that trial when it’s ready for you!
Sending you a big hug! Bev
Thanks for all your positivity Jill. I need it some days. My cancer is mostly stable – it’s the Cushing’s and mobility challenges that wear me down. But when I think of my sisters in Ottawa Circle, like You Jill, I feel such an uplift. Even losing Kim, Brigette, and Lynne is really tough but what touchstones of sweetness, fun, guts, and love they are! I feel stronger for having known them.
It’s good to share our good times, rough patches, and drifting times. To ask for help. To say “yes”. And appreciation for little things. See you on zoom I hope soon! Jan Frizell