This week my oncologist decided that I won’t do a sixth round of chemo. Apparently the cost-benefit ratio tends to shift with each subsequent round, so the first rounds typically affect the cancer more, whereas the later rounds would often have a smaller impact on the cancer but a larger one on the body.
I was feeling a lot of side effects, many of which can be permanent, so we’re taking a break from chemo. I was willing to go another round, but quite relieved and thankful that I don’t have to. I’m still very tired, often struggling to think clearly, and feeling worn down.
Some of the side effects may disappear in weeks, some will likely take months, and some may remain with me. If you are a praying sort of person, I’d welcome and appreciate your prayers for complete healing: not only from the cancer, but also from the effects of treatment. I am so encouraged and uplifted by the many reminders I receive from so many of you who hold us in your hearts, thoughts and prayers … thank you!
I’m quite puffy from the combination of the chemo and the steroids I continue to take for the cough. This is uncomfortable and inconvenient since many of my clothes don’t fit! Another prayer request!
I continue to try to practice good self care: to eat well, rest well, exercise appropriately, have fun with the kids, etc. I try to discern my priorities and ration my energy wisely. This can all be quite challenging!
Can I take a moment to say how amazing my family is? Jono has had to pick up a larger share of the family responsibilities, and the kids are stepping up well too. Our eldest turned 13 last month, and the other day I was sitting at the table, unable to eat what the rest of the family was eating and too tired to figure out what to do about it. He said (right in the middle of his dinner), “Mom, would you like me to cook you eggs for dinner?” What a lovely and thoughtful teen! He regularly makes our Saturday breakfasts too! Our 10yo is so keen and quick to help. He is an initiative-taker, and often jumps up to help without being asked. Our 7yo also loves to help, and can become very disappointed if a sibling beats her to helping with something. They are very capable and cheerful workers (much of the time!), and I am very proud of them! I am so grateful for the many ways our family is pulling together during this challenging time.
My talking voice seems to be continuing to improve, my nose seems to be bleeding a bit less, and I’m getting better at the exercises my physiotherapist gave me … in fact, I’m doing so well, I don’t need to see her regularly anymore! There is always much to be thankful for, including the warmer weather and the sun, robins, flowers, the faithful love of God, and the generosity of so many friends.